On the topic of change, that is something I’ve been experiencing a lot of lately… What catches me off guard however, isn’t how the world is changing, thus directly affecting my life – but the changes within myself that adjust my perception of the world. While I wouldn’t go as far as to say I’ve “turned a corner”, there is something very different about how I think now compared to say, six months ago.
Since the topic of this blog has been photography since its creation, I will begin with sharing another photo – again from the Queenstown Photo-walk last December – and elaborate a little more on whats going on in my head when I think about myself behind the camera…
As I stated in the previous post, my perception of photography is undergoing somewhat of a transformation. I’m not at all inclined to stagnate my style and neglect artistic exploration. By that I mean I don’t want to be put in a fucking box. Unfortunately its not quite that simple, and if my experience in social media has taught me anything, its that one cannot judge their own success off the endless swarms of people willing to give nothing but positive feedback. I have a huge respect for those willing to cut the crap (cheers, Stefan & Codie) and be brutally honest – I’ve grown to crave this feedback for my own personal and professional development.
Recently I’ve become incredibly frustrated by what I consider to be baseless fanfare combined with an un-educatede appreciation for quality. I’m sick of those who produce crap that is swallowed up and regurgitated in the form of comments that sound like they come from a brainless sparrow. To be clear on what I mean by this, I have no problem whatsoever with those that appreciate artwork that is a little outside the scope of regular. My issue lies with those that produce utterly shit results and do it en masse as to block out any form of honest & constructive feedback.
Those who lower the overall standards compromise the integrity of industries and professions alike… I’m sorry, thats just what I believe.
Every passion I have in life revolves around a ‘perfectionist model’ – that is to say I do everything to the best of my ability. In many cases, if I can’t do it well, I won’t do it at all. If its a professional task, I will either gain the skill myself, or outsource the job to someone I consider capable. With that in mind, I understand that many won’t feel that I do as well as I’d like to – and given a clear line of communication, I would likely agree with them, hence my desire for honest & credible feedback.
So how does this all relate to photography? Well, in a nutshell it means I feel my results aren’t up to standard. I browse sites like 500px and wonder to myself “why am I not producing results like this?”. The only conclusion I can come up with is that I’m not applying myself as well as I could, and based on my model for perfection, I put my photography in the background and focus on things that I know I can do very well.
Despite temptations to put it on hold entirely, thats counter-productive. My investment in equipment and skill need not go wasted… And when the opportunity arrises to spend valuable time with mates behind the lens – I will always jump at the chance.
Perhaps the universe just gave me a hint to stop writing before I shoot myself in the foot… I was in the middle of critiquing the user experience of a website when it crashed my browser and cause me to lose the second half of this post. Oh well. I’ll save these thoughts for another time.
Basically this post was about getting some thoughts out there and seeing if anyone agrees… Granted, many might find this harsh approach akin to a crusade, and in many ways I guess it is. I’m just formalizing a set of criteria that govern how I operate in the world. People can take it or leave it, I’m not forcing these opinions on anyone. Those who now me well understand that these thought processes enable me to do well in specific areas of life – cheers, Asperger syndrome…